So....

Cold Cold MIL.

I have this friend J who was visiting from abroad. It so happened that I brought her to Fiance's house. I think it was proper of me to introduce J to my future in laws (at that time they were still BF's parents) as I found them seated on the sofa of one of the rooms of the house - I went to them to give them a respectful kiss on the cheek. As I leaned forward - they did not even lean towards me (so that I won't need to lean all the way) I was the one who noticed it - but then brushed it off. When J saw it - she found it kind of off. She then told me while we were in the car (Fiance was not there yet) I remember what she told me she said '(My name), when you get married - can you not live with your in-laws?' I asked why - then she told me that she found it odd that the parents did not lean forward when I kissed them. Okay - so it wasn't just me that noticed! Hahaha..

So last night - at dinner time there were weird moments:

1) When we were discussing the date and time of wedding, she told us NOT to follow the time anymore! I told her that the friend who helped us get a date told us that why did he even bother to get us a date when we won't follow it anyways.

2) I have been trying NOT to eat pork and beef for the past months - she gave me a hard time when she learned I did not eat rice. So now - when she learned that I was abstaining from pork and beef she uttered 'Eh last year ka pa nagdadiet eh!' with her knowing look (that was like saying - eh hindi ka naman pumapayat!)

3) During bye bye time - when I leaned over to kiss her - she did not budge. Her facial expression was blank and seemed (to me) like she was unhappy (it might be that I am just paranoid. To be perfectly honest, future MIL is not one of those happy faces you see- she won't smile at you immediately - but would wonder first - unlike me! As I smile to everyone who catches my eye.)

Now, my friend K has reminded me countless of times that I am NOT marrying future MIL but Fiance. I should always keep that in mind. But I get affected with these things, I mean I value family - and if one does not like me - well, I'm going to have a hard time becoming comfortable.

Acceptance - I need to feel that from her. I am actually hungry for it. And I don't know why?!

XOXO
Miss B.